Welcome to My Imperfect Life

Suddenly feel so lonely… Suddenly doubt my choice… Suddenly think i’m pathetically weak… Will i still live the same way i do if tomorrow never comes… Perhaps not… Perhaps i will choose to feel all the joys and sorrows rather than staying away… Perhaps i should change my dull and unforeseen plan… Will i regret the decision i make today 10 years from now…Will i hate myself in the near future for not taking chances… Suddenly the loneliness has gone… Suddenly i don’t know how to continue this post anymore… Suddenly feel like shouting, or maybe crying, but yet feel so awkward to scare everyone else around if i shout and feel so stupid if i cry, and yet for no reason… Am i going insane… What’s wrong with me… Perhaps it’s normal to feel that way… Perhaps it’s not…. Perhaps this is life all about… Perhaps this is why religious have so significant effect on humans in the history… Perhaps that’s the easy way out… But i don’t like that way… I want to know what i’m doing… I want to have a reason for everything i do… And yet i can’t explain the way i behave most of the time… maybe the hardest person to understand is yourself… Or perhaps it’s the easiest… Since normally people say they understand others but the truth is they just thought they do… Who knows for sure… How confident are you when you say that you understand a person… Are you sure he/she is the person you think she/he is… Cuz i don’t even dare to ensure you i’m the person you think i am… Cuz i can’t tell it myself… Even i don’t have 100% confidence as to who i am… Then, how can a person understand another person… Since nobody really understand their own selves perfectly… Maybe this is why life’s so interesting and confusing at the same time…

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